I'm with ya

To all those without hope. To those that think about the beyond as a place that is far more tranquil. Or at least where the head you have now can start over. Can be fucked again through life's tender methods to do so. Make you this person longing for an end. I'm with ya, I don't think we have cause but that might just be upbringing talking. We choose our mortality with every passive breathe. We will struggle for it as nature intends but ultimately if it was just a switch many of us would have put it in the off position a long time ago. Long is relative too. 20 years can be your life or just half of it, maybe even a quarter. What I beckon is that experience what you can and give the world, no matter how shitty the view of it, something beautiful for someone else in their oddities to enjoy and take with them.

I don't condone suicide. However I don't damn it either. Do with your life what you please, but attain your full capability. Reach the height and step off there. Because even there I don't think we who think this way can ever be happy. We who can accept deciding our fate, even as not completely in our control as it is. The morning will come despite you, lack of you. World's have lived and died in your time, whether figuratively or actually. You are not the things you own but a reflection of the world you own. The actions and decisions you own. Maybe these have been satisfied, only you can tell you this. Only you can decide or call this off. Nothing should hold you. Even though something might. Something indefinable for me is.